January 15th, 2012
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  • Do you know it’s -7 (19F) in Toronto?
  • Do you know it’s 28 (83F) in Melbourne?
  • Do you know exactly two weeks from this moment I’ll be on a 27 hour plane ride from Toronto to Melbourne?
  • Do you know how lazy I was this weekend?
  • Do you know how poorly I ate this weekend?
  • Do you know how I keep promising myself I’ll do things, then go on the Internet and/or watch tv and/or do nothing?
  • Do you know for the last two weeks I’ve promised myself every day I’ll be better tomorrow, start fresh tomorrow, but today is never tomorrow?
  • Do you know how tight my clothes are?
  • Do you know how messy my room is?
  • Do you know how chipped my nails are?
  • Do you know how little I’ve run lately?
  • Do you know how much I don’t like the person I am lately?
  • Do you know I look to photos of myself from this time last year for inspiration?
  • Do you know that I’m edging towards that moment of change, I can feel it coming?
  • Do you know that moment I’m talking about? The moment you decide enough is enough, I can’t go on like this, something has to change?

Something has to change.  Maybe I could continue on with the lazy and eating too much thing if I was maintaining, but I’m not.  Every morning that number between my toes is just creeping up, and up, and up.

It stops now.

It has to stop now.

It’s time.

Tomorrow is Monday. Tomorrow I’ll run as far as I can, as slow as I need to go. Tomorrow I’ll paint my nails and do two loads of laundry. Tomorrow I’ll work on my resume. Tomorrow I’ll go horse-riding (get. out. the. house.). Tomorrow I’ll track my food.

Tomorrow I’ll begin [again]. It’s time.

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  1. thin-for-paris said: It must be hard to start afresh when you have such a huge new start just on the horizon… it’s hard to concentrate. Don’t beat yourself up. And don’t forget how far you have come. Melbourne is the BIG new start and it’s going to be fantastic.
  2. sarahspeaksnow said: Do you know how amazing you are? Ups AND downs? Keep a smile on your face and remember we’re all here for you and with you, Liz! Rock your new beginning. xoxo
  3. madgirlrun said: Liz- When are you going to post an updated weight post? You say you have gained so much, but I don’t see it in your pictures. (granted I know you choose the picture you like the most to post…I do the same thing) How can we encourage you?
  4. pntaylor said: And we’re with you all the way Liz :) I’ve had a similar flunk recently and, like you, felt that I had to hop back on the fitness train sooner rather than later. It ain’t easy this fitness lark!
  5. bobbleinthebay said: I love your blog and I use yourself for my inspiration on the daily :)
  6. x-mystupidmouth said: weight posttttt.
  7. strivingtothrive said: we’re all rooting for you, liz. <3 and i’m definitely in a similar place.
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  9. angelicsatan said: You can do it! It’s as easy as planning! Make some bulk meals so you have to eat them, set yourself some easy daily goals and put them on your wall so you will feel better before you come here to OZ! Read my blog for some inspo! :)
  10. my-intention-is-happiness said: it’ll be easier to make drastic changes when you’re in Melbs… it truly is a fresh start - believe me, I know… plus with the heat and the availability of market goodness you’ll eat less/ better and will see the progress… promise… ;)