A rebuttal email to myself. I was bored at work this morning and took a gander through my blackberry’s notepad, where I stumbled across a long note I wrote to myself a few weeks ago, when I was very tipsy, fine! drunk. It was mean, hurtful and hateful. It took me a few minutes to realize I was the one who had written it… yup, I thought I had a mortal enemy out there for a moment. Here is the rebuttal to myself.
Smile because you’re worth it. You’re worth more than you’ll ever know and simply put? You deserve the world. That feeling you felt walking to work this morning, tipping your head up to catch snow flakes on your tongue, you know the feeling where utter happiness goes through your body? Well… it’s yours to keep. You deserve that day in and day out.
It doesn’t matter what shoes are on your feet, what jacket hangs in your closest, if your hair is curled perfectly, or the boy on the other side of the street notices you. None of it matters. What matters is the person you are.
Stop beating yourself up. Stop looking at your negatives. Stop. Eating that extra cookie, buying a chocolate bar, succumbing to the Christmas menu at Starbucks does NOT make you a terrible person. It doesn’t, I’m sorry, but it just doesn’t.
You can ‘hate’ yourself all you want, feel stick to your stomach from chocolate almonds, but none of it means you’ve failed, none of it means you’re not worth fighting for, because you are.
So fight for it: Accomplish your dreams. Makes long lists of your goals and never give up. Never. Know that the journey is just as important as the destination.
You deserve the world. Keep fighting.