Hummus is SO delicious. It really helps at celery/carrot snack time.
Which is now. I am eating celery and carrots as I type this, and? they are delicious. Delicious because of the hummus.
Be gone! FAT, BE GONE!
Thank you!! I am so humbled by your extremely kind words. I shalln’t lie, I woke up this morning with immediate regret about that post. I even signed on to remove it, but then realized so many people had already seen it, and it most likely had been fed into people’s google-readers thus it would be pointless.
But again, thank you!! Your message was much appreciated. Losing weight the healthy way feels so much better than losing weight through shortcuts.
Thank you for reading and following!
My Food Today!
I thought I was doomed last night to buy my lunch today (and thus eat unhealthy), but I conquered my sabotaging thoughts and got my ass out of bed early this morning to make my lunch and snacks today.
These are topics I’ve never touched on, on this blog, mostly because my sister and 3 friends read this blog and each and everyone of them have no idea about this…
In four words? Been there. Done that.
For the first time in my life I feel it is completely out of my system, which is most likely the reason my brain is actually allowing my fingers to take this information public.
I’d go through phases of a few days to months (8 being my longest). It started way-back-when in high school and the last time I threw up food was Aug 08 (I think).
Binge Eating sucks.
I had no control when I was alone. I’d eat, and eat, and then eat some more. We’re talking ENTIRE pizzas, ENTIRE tubs of ice-cream, all the food in the fridge or anything I could find. (It’s amazing how there is always food one can find).
I once ate my roommate’s entire new box of fudgsicles (ya, think about that) and then hurried to the store to buy her more. They didn’t have the exact ones, so I went to a 2nd store, but to no avail, and then a 3rd… I ended up going to four stores, and none of them had them, so (freaking out obviosuly, “omigod what if my secret is revealed!?”) I hurried home and pretended the freezer had broken by defrosting EVERYTHING in the freezer before she got home, and then I told her I had thrown everything out (including said fidgsicles) because everything had melted. Oh the lies!
I think that was the beginning of the end. It was so much effort to hide that binge I made the conscious decision to stop doing it. And I did.
Throwing your food up sucks more.
Bulimia comes hand in hand with binge eating. If you’re a girl and care about your weight, and then all of a sudden find yourself eating a day’s worth of calories in a single sitting, you too would think of the easy way out.
In the past I’ve made excuses to go home quickly after dinner with friends, I’ve waited for all the women to leave the bathroom at work, I’ve skipped outings to eat at home in the comfort of my fridge and washroom. I’ve missed out on life because of food.
It was ridiculous. Looking back on it now I suppose i did have a problem (ps I totally started this post with the intention of, “I was never actually bulimic,” but re-reading the above? umm ya.. maybe I was.
Anyways, like I said, it’s out of my system now. I am not skinnier because of any of it, if anything just more unhealthy on the inside. I wish so much I could have seen video footage of myself, all alone in my apartment, sitting on my couch mindlessly eating, nay devouring, everything in sight. Trying to fill a void, a void to something I still don’t know what.
So there that is. This was a hard post to write, but the point is to let you know, because I know lots, and lots and lots of people (girls esp.) do it, that it’s not worth it. Not worth it at all. You don’t have to live that way. It takes a moment’s decision. A commitment. You’re better than that, I was better than that. I’m so thankful I know this now and would prefer to be chubby, old me as apposed to weighing 125 and watching my food (and $!) go down the drain (not to mention the teeth!).
No matter my weight, no matter your weight, this life is a gift and to let such trivial things (such as food and weight) affect our lives to such a degree is just terrible. Open your eyes to the mysteries of the world. There are great things out there, way greater than food.
I know this now, thank God.
This may have been the best question I’ve ever received, why? Oh perhaps because I get made fun of from everyone I know for enjoying delicious, brussel sprouts! But they’re just so damn tasty…
*cue me popping one in my mouth right now. Actually, as I’m literally eating my lunch as I type this*
So, depending on how much time I have, I steam my brussel sprouts one of two ways
Also, because I’m a tool and forgot I activated my other ‘ask me’ tumblr, I hadn’t received any of your questions! Until that is I discovered them last night. So sorry. See answers here. Whoops!