I just got back from the doctor’s office and am so, so very happy!! He was amazing and really seemed to know what he was talking about (he was the Canadian Olympic Team’s running doctor).
He gave me a green light to run this summer!!
I am so relived, I had fears of hearing “you’ll never run again" and "you’ll definitely need surgery,” (yup, I let my mind wander…) so this is fantastic.
He diagnosed it as my IT Band being tight and has referred me to a physiotherapy.
I know, I know this is all very over-dramatic for a tubby-wannabe-runner, but I feel running/The Chicago Marathon is such a massive goal I’ve set for myself, that it’s not only going to shape my body, but also shape me into a new person.
I need to accomplish this goal more than I’ve ever felt I needed to do something in my life, and thus this news is a huge relief!
My mind is running a thousand miles an hour and is literally all over the place, which obviously calls for a point form post. Obviously.
So much to tell you, so little time (<— Lie. Little to tell you, and lots of time).
The scale was up this morning, but despite that insignificant, little number between my toes, I am in a very, very good mood
I leave for Dominican (Punta Cana!) in 66 hours, but whose counting?
I went to the walk-in clinic for my knee yesterday, which still really hurts. The Dr. was useless and just forwarded me onto a specialist (10am tomorrow morning), but not before prescribing some pain-killer drug, which she told me to take 1 hour before I run to “numb” the pain. Umm ya, no thank you, I want this fixed, not numbed.
I also wanted to thank everyone who gave me knee advice/comments/emails I read everything and really appreciated the help, Thank You!!
I know everybody loves Sunshine and O’Neal on The Biggest Loser, but I don’t. And if that makes me a bad person, so be it. Although I did cry in last night’s episode, but that is really neither here nor there.
I went bathing suit shopping yesterday with a forgotten gift-card I found in my wallet for $100!! I ended up buying two suits, which I love (they both fullfill my bathing-suit-must-have-requirements. One’s red and ones a dark, navy blue, halter top, and old fashioned like. I also realized, when I was staring at myself in the 360 degree mirrors, and naturally pretending I was on What-Not-To-Wear, that I have thunder, cottage cheese thighs, Ewww.
If my DVR was a person, he’d be dead right now. Last week Glee was on at 9:30pm, which is how my DVR was set up to record Glee, but they changed it to 9pm this week, and because my DVR is, as-thick-as-a-brick it didn’t record it. I was literally cursing at the stupid thing all night. What a tragedy. Let it be known, the TiVo gods did not pull through for me on Tuesday, April 21, 2010.
I have yet to pack a single thing for my trip. I’m starting to get nervous…
Random fact: I have 86 drafts on tumblr.
My new assistant starts tomorrow. Can. Not. Wait.
I have a friend from university staying with me right now. She is awesome and makes me happy.
I need to update my budget far April, but I’m way too scared…
I’ve given my nails 3 months off from any colour (I know, I know… it was so hard too), but they’re finally looking healthy and are ready to be coated non—stop now until the fall with beautiful, bright, bright pinks and reds, but mostly pinks.
I find it shocking it’s nearly May
It’s lunch time. This makes me happy. Lunchtime always makes me happy.
So… I ran tonight (that’s good), but I didn’t go far (that’s bad), the weather was stunning (that’s good), but my knee pain came back with vengeance (that’s bad, very, very bad).
So question… do knee braces actually do anything? The pain was so bad tonight I had to walk home and am now hobbling around between icing my knee. Me thinks I’m going to book an appointment with a running/sports doctor, as I was on the verge of tears today from the pain and at the thought I won’t be able to run this summer/the marathon.
So, does anyone know about knee braces, yes? no? maybe? The pain is right on the side of my left knee. So, Dear Dr. Tumblr, please help a tubby-wanna-be-runner out…
The laziness that is me has reached new heights lately. I didn’t even leave my condo yesterday and it was GORGEOUS out. At about 2pm I told myself, I can still make today productive, I could run… I could do groceries… and then I proceeded to take a nap sleep and wake up at 9pm. WHOA.
You’d think I’d be well rested today, but I’m not. I ate terribly this past weekend and now feel like a useless ball of lard. I have no motivation to do anything. Not shop, not run, not even eat. O.k, that’s a lie. All I want to do is eat.
My gym stuff is under my desk right now and in 1 hour and 8 minutes, when the clock strikes 5, I need to go for a run, but I have ZERO desire to move. I need to feel out the knee, (which I think is better now ps), and burn some of the lard off my ass from the weekend in an attempt to not look like a whale made out of cottage cheese this coming weekend.
Thank goodness I’m heading south on Friday because seriously yo, I am SO BORED with my life right now, it’s ridic. I need something to change, but all signs are pointing to wash, rinse, repeat.
Just thought i would say, I just this second started following you because I saw that awesome banana post (which I know from experience, even though I don't like banana, is delicious)... and I love your blog already. I loved the friends quote in that post, i would recognize it anywhere. I could quote every episode and i say that regularly :) Haha. I love your blog because you are not another person trying to lose an unhealthy amount of weight and I like that. It is refreshing for me, as I am trying to recover from 'disordered eating' as I would call it, or an ED as others would.
Thankyou for being so awesome :)
What a lovely message to receive! Thank you for following and messaging! Absolute best of luck with losing weight the healthy weigh (<— so witty am I).
Whether people overeat (me!) or under eat (past tense you) it’s all about finding a balance. Both are terribly unhealthy. The recent influx of all these must-lose-weight-must-look-minus-one-hundred-pounds-must-look-like-skin-and-bones blogs is TERRIBLE!!
I always wonder what those poor girls think of me and my one hundred and sixty pound ass, when they weigh 110 and are aiming for under 100. Shocking. Especially as bones are truly so unattractive to the eye.
Despite being considered “obese” most of my life, and still currently hanging out in the “over weight” zone, I would choose to be me any day of the week as apposed to on the verge of starvation simply to be a few pounds less. I don’t know much, but I know that that is certainly not what life is about.
Again, thank you for following and choosing the healthy/right way, ultimately it’ll be the most rewarding outcome in the end.
Are you calorie counting or what? Congratulations on your weight loss thus far, you look fabulous girl :)
Yes! I am calorie counting, I wanted to wait 2 weeks before I made a post on it, which actually happens to be today! For the past 2 weeks I’ve written every single thing that’s entered my body into my little, pink notebook.
I aim for 1,200 calories a day, but have hit has low as 800 and as much as a 3,000 (whoa) in a day. Once I type up my food/calories I’ll do an official post on this; highlighting the pros/cons ect. But so far? So far I think it works.
Sometimes I receive not-so-nice messages, comments and emails.
And sometimes those messages, comments, and emails leave me staring at my screen wondering who spent their time, arranging the words on their screen, in that particular order, to simply hurt my feelings.
Well… Mission accomplished.
But, I don’t really understand; I definitely follow my fair share of blogs and couldn’t imagine taking the time to write something mean to somebody, especially about the person they are when I don’t actually know them in real life.
If I didn’t like the person I wouldn’t read their blog. It’s pretty simple. Un.follow.
I read all the comments, all the messages and all the emails and most of them are simply amazing and wonderful and awesome and others? not so much.
I do think the person I truly am has come across on One Twenty Five from blogging nearly every single day for a year, but I also think the person that’s left in my archives is the blog version of me. A person who represents some of my highs, some of my lows, and noteverything in between.
I’m not an anti-feminist, I don’t need to see a psychiatrist (#1 thing people tell me ps), yes I know I’ve been at the same weight for, like, ever, I know I may come off as ditsy and dumb, or conceited, and spoiled, I know I’m not an expert (never claimed to be) on nutrition or the gym, and I’m not perfect - any day of the week.
The comments, messages and emails suck to receive. I think about them at night, when I’m walking to work or even watching tv. If you don’t like me, if you don’t like this blog, please don’t read it.
I am me. Me, myself and I. And right now? Right now I’m content with that.
hey! you inspired me to start eating clean so i bought the book and today's my first day. so far so good -- but any advice for beginners? stuff you wish you had known when you were starting out? love your blog, congrats on your weight loss so far! :)
Take the time to fully read the book, the diet, the program and figure out what exactly you can eat, and can’t, portions, and rules. I am a lazy reader and would always scan stuff and be, ‘ya, ya, ya I get it…’ but I didn’t.
Eating healthy/clean does not equal dieting. You can maintain and/or GAIN weight from eating healthy. Portion control is KEY.
Try recipes. I never did and thus got bored.
The 3 calories in that asparagus spear count. Everything counts. Nothing is “free”
3 days of eating healthy is not enough. I would always be sad/annoyed/disappointed if I hadn’t lost weight after only 3 or 4 days of eating well.
Record everything. Buy a pretty, little book that will make you want to write in it. This has saved me. Also, write down everything you eat. If you eat badly, no worries, but write. it. down.
O.k, disclaimer is a must here, “blind leading the blind,’ BUT gooood luck!!
I’m finding it really hard not to “starve” myself today. Really hard.
Well, those are certainly words I never thought I’d hear myself say, but it’s true, I’m trying really hard to actually eat today. Don’t look so shocked, it’s rude.
Ummm E, what the heck are you talking about? (<— that was you). Why would such nonsense ever come from you, the chubby girl who LOVES food nearly more than life itself? (<— that was your mother).
Well let me explain; I’ve been counting calories the past week, never going below 1,000/day, but never going above 1,200/day, until yesterday. I didn’t even eat that much yesterday, but what I did eat was cake and cookies and chocolate bars. I’m nearly sure I hit about 3,000 calories yesterday, which has resulted in panic mode setting in today and the constant feeling that I need to hardly eat today, to ahh ya know… “counteract yesterday’s blunder.”
I know starving yourself and/or skipping meals only results in binge eating (which I am the Queen of) and then purging (eww I hate that word and again, I also have been known to dabble in this),
I am pretending yesterday didn’t happen and I’m still going to aim for 1,200 calories today. No starving myself. No skipping meals. No binge eating. I have not failed in my goals. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work, and now I’m going for 10,001.
Update: Thank you!! Thank you!! Thank you!! Sincerely, thank you :) It was the snuggie and new Glee episodes that got you, wasn’t it? Wasn’t it?! I’m giving each of you who voted a warm, Internet hug right now, I really appreciate it. Thank you!
And so my friends, it’s with blushing cheeks, a bribe of calorie-free donuts, a tub of fat-less creamy ice-cream, a remote control and a snuggie, a TiVo filled with new Glee episodes, an Internet high five and a humblr (<— hehe, get it?) smile that I ask you to kindly please recommend me and help keep me listed.
Hopefully someone will stumble over my story and realize they’re not alone in this constant fight to shed the lard, find themselves and become the best person they can be.
We have very similar bodies (I'm also 5'4 and was around 200) but you've lost far more weight then me and congrats, love reading your blog! Do you have any tips for arms and toning inner thighs? Both are flabby and unattractive, making me despondent. Keep up the good work:)
Hello, hello, hello! Thank you for the kind words, and to be honest my arms and inner thighs are still super flabby, so I’m not sure I’m the best person to answer this, but…
I’m now using 10 pound weights (started at 7) and I do all the regular arm moves. I found this article online and pretty much hit up all those movements each week.
The sex machine (<— my personal nickname for it). And running, squats, lunges, maybe? Not too sure. Sorry.