it’s 1:46am. i should be sleeping. i’m really tired. i need my sleep. i just keep thinking. thinking about stupid stuff too. my stomach is full of food. i want to lose weight really badly right now. i want to be 125.
but isn’t that how the story goes? when i’m full i get determined to diet. when i’m full i’m determined to start new. when i’m full i’m determined to lose weight. when i’m full i feel ‘i can do this!’
it’s when that full feeling isn’t there i’m scared of. it’s when that full feeling isn’t there; that’s when i need to find a way to be determined. be motivated. learn i don’t always get what i want. learn i’m not in a competition with anyone to eat food. learn i’m worth it.
Since I created one-twenty-five I’ve seen tons, and tons and tons of weight loss blogs pop up. I thought I’d update the old list, but as so many souls out there stopped blogging after a few posts (gasp! get back in the game y’all! It helps. Promise) I thought I’d put it to you…
Are you a weight loss blog (tumblr or non-tumblr)? Add your link below if you please :) I’ll then create a post with a list of all us fabulous-fashionably-chubby folk fighting the good fight, one day at a time.
Sooooo! What kind of diet are you looking to do? What kind of diet do you think you need to be on that you can be successful with? What would help keep you motivated to stay on said diet?
Ohhh so many excellent questions.
A diet where I get to sit on my ass, eat and still lose weight, which obvy doesn’t exist - so I guess a diet that isn’t too restricting so I can still live a normal life, and I can turn it into a lifestyle, not a diet.
To be successful? Well I know any diet I choose I will drop weight on if I follow it. That’s what diets do - they restrict calorie intake, so to be successful at it I need to mentally prepare myself - hence Feb 1st. Exactly 365 after I lost the first 35, I’m going to go for the 2nd 35. It’s getting my head around the concept that food is not my lover.
Results. Nothing tastes sweeter than losing weight, it’s a spectacular feeling to stand in one’s room and try on clothes that once didn’t fit. Trying to lose weight, not cheating and not losing weight = poop.
Thanks for asking! I’m going to research a lot of the diets people posted today and then buy a book tomorrow night! I’m excited! I’m going to rock this shit out the diet and try and think like a skinny person!
I’ve been thinking a lot lately - about the lard that encompasses my body(shocking, I know) and I’ve decided to start an official diet February 1st (my 1 year blog anniversary, eeek!!). Like a txt book diet; eat-this, don’t-eat-that diet.
In the past I’ve done South Beach, Weight Watchers, SlimFast, and No Carbs…
Anyone know of a great diet they’ve tried and would recommend to a fellow tubster, such as myself??
I would love you forever and name my first born after you. True Story.
As you may or may not know I was planning on moving home for the summer and leaving my beautiful condo to live at home with The Parents and save money.
My current roommate is buying her own place (omigosh I know! 24 and buying her own place, holy shit) which meant I’d either have to find someone to take her place, or move out.
Well.. I FOUND SOMEONE, and it’s a boy! Gasp! Which means I get to stay downtown this summer and run along the lake, which was the #1 reason I wanted to stay.
Back in the day, The Boy Roommate and I used to be mortal enemies; actually, but luckily we’ve come along way since high school days. A few characteristics about him? he’s ridiculously easy going, laid back, works in finance too, smokes up a lot and is very tall and skinny.
Should be interesting living with a boy that has no idea about my obsession with food/weight, but I’m super excited for the summer! Especially as we’ve already decided our furniture will be made up for a HUGE tv, comfortable couches and a beer-pong table.
Run 5k OUTSIDE (like a Champ) (Also to fulfill Spring-Shape-Up challenge goal)
Study (like a Champ)
Laundry it (like a Champ) - DONE
Fist pump (like a Champ) - DONE
Read the next chapter in my book, The Beck Diet Solution, which has really made me think that this whole me-being-fat-thing? 100% My stupid brain creating sabotaging thoughts.
Tidy apartment (like a Champ) as roommate’s mom is coming over tonight - DONE
Go grocery shopping (like a Champ) - DONE
Watch The Bachelor (like a Champ) (which I’m surprising really into this season)
Email friends (like a Champ)
I think the amount of crap food I consumed this weekend placeD me into the binge-eating-zone. No Lie.
OHMIGOD. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? There is no doubt about it, I, E, of tubby fame, eat my feelings. Oh God, how embarrassing is that?! But seriously yo- this weekend? I ate my 'I'm-Going-To-Die-Alone-With-Lots-Of-Cats-Nobody-Will-Ever-Like-Me" feelings.
My weight this morning was STILL 165, which is quite remarkable. Sometimes I feel like my body is trying to losing weight, nay fighting to lose weight, but I keep loading carbs and sugars into my mouth, thus halting the process.
I fell off the wagon and sadly (honestly) I’m not quite back on it yet, nope - I’m running behind it, trying to find some hope and energy to boost myself back up.
Rise and Shine and give God the Glory, Glory (anyone? anyone?), make a delicious breakfast comprised of egg whites, onions, mushrooms and salsa, turn the music up loud and organize/tidy my room (which is currently a nightmare), scrub/clean washroom, organize laundry, go to Starbucks and study until my little eyes can’t study no more. Hardly eat today (obvy I will still eat, I just mean a salad for din din and lunch), go buy long running pants (so I can run outside tomorrow), study, be awesome, study, blog, study, and awesome at it again.
I’ve watched Conan for years, and years and years. Watching his show is one of my favourite memories with my brother; we’d sneak downstairs after everyone fell asleep, turn the volume down low, sit so close to the tv it couldn’t have been good for our eyes, and listen intently to Conan. We’d laugh so hard we wouldn’t be able to keep the volume down, and like clockworks my dad would come downstairs and shoo us back to bed.
I teared up during tonight’s finale, what a humble, funny, great man.
Things that make me smile, because umm ya… haven’t you heard? It’s Smile Friday!
Free basket ball tickets to the Raptors vs. Bucks game. Yes, yes I too had to google where the ‘bucks’ were from (fyi Milwaukee). Anywho, basketball is neither here nor there for me, unless the seats are $280 each, (row 19, seats 17 and 18, booyea!) and I was given them for FREE. One of my good friends, who loves basketball and recently went through her first breakup, will be accompanying me. The entire day yesterday I was glowing with happiness and excitement simply because I could offer her such a wonderful gift, as I knew she’d really appreciate it, perhaps enough for the two of us? Because tis true, I will be a waste in such an awesome seat.
Skinny jeans and high heels. Seriously yo, I feel haawwwt today.
Twitter. This comes as a shock to me tooooo! I never really ‘got’ twitter until recently, it was just a useless facebook in my opinion, but oh how very wrong I was. I totes magotes now understand why it’s so popular. I tweeted to Snookie from Jersey Shore last night. My life is now complete.
Eating Healthy and Studying and making the right decisions
Saving money. I didn’t buy one lunch this week people! That’s EPIC for me!
I got asked out at my bank last night, BY THE TELLER! Think about how awkward that is, especially as he was a good foot shorter than me, o.k not that short, but he was short. Yes, I’m a height-ist. He invited me to a private BANK PARTY! Who knew those even existed? And I work for The Bank too! Ha! As I had no idea what to do, and he was… ah… endearing I said yes, also because umm ya.. there was another SUPER CUTE bank teller there. Shut up you! The word isn’t ‘bitch’ you’re looking for, it’s ‘wow E, way to keep your options open’
90 calorie lattes from Starbucks. My face smiles as my ass jiggles.
I’m so proud of myself right now. From 8:12am until 3 minutes ago* a massive tin of beautiful, chocolate cookies (of all varieties) has been sitting within a 5 step radius from me and I didn’t even eat one! Not a single one. *Insert Self fist punch, and then slow-motion explosion here*
E: 1 Cookies: 0
* that would be a total of 497 minutes, yes I know this, because each minute was hard as hell, and ticked by sooo sllllooowwwwlllly, but it feels good not to have given into my sabotaging thoughts. Be gone sabotaging thoughts, be gone!
i'll blame the tummy for now. but i've got to smarten the f*ck up!
I feel like everything’s been crashing down on me lately. I’ve been failing at everything I do and just keep making bad life decisions. It’s frustrating as hell.
My mother of a stomach is still acting up, and it forced me to take today off and sit at home in boredom (trust; I could not go far from a toilet).
I feel work doesn’t believe me (which is annoying me greatly), I feel my budget, or lack there of, has caught up with me (OMIGOD I NEED TO SAVE), my studying skills are non existent and I have a 6 hour exam on February 22 (aka NEED to study), and our trip to Grenada may be postponed (soooo sad) due to my (lack of ) budget and (lack of) studying skills.
My weight has literally been bouncing all over the place, I’ve seen 158 and 170 within the last few days, and currently I’m sitting at 168 for no apparent reason, because I promise y’all everything I eat, finds it’s way out.
Also I feel so lost on a MAC, as of right now Microsoft > MAC, oh yes, I went there.
I also haven’t been to the gym in forever and my personal trainer and I are having some scheduling issues, which means I may be getting a new one - I’m thinking a girl this time.
I want to hide from the world under my snuggie and not come out until May, when I can run outside, my exams are over, I would have received my Q1 bonus and life will be good again.
Also, one of my lovely readers emailed me about a book, and even though I haven’t emailed her back yet (because I’ve been terrible at emails lately - I blame the tummy, I swear they’re coming soon!), I bought the book! So, my current read is, “The Beck Diet Solution,” so I’m trying to now conquer food mentally, I’ll let y’all know how it goes… so far I like it.
Tomorrow is Wednesday, it better be better than Tuesday.
Due to my stomach still being sketchy (OMIGOD REALLY STOMACH, REALLY?!) I’ve decided to opt out of the gym tonight as I don’t want to push it and instead accept an invitation for drinks with Nice Guy, except “drinks” will be a diet coke, because again, stomach? sketch-o.
How sad are you to be leaving that fabulous apartment of yours in the next couple months? Trust me when I say that tumblrs across the land, especially me, are totally jealous. (Aside from that whole window washer situation. That's just creepy.)
There are no words to the sadness that I’ll incur. Although the parents have FREE rent, FREE food, and FREE cable, they just can’t compete with lake views, sunsets a 15 minute walk to work and living right downtown.
Sigh, it’s going to be a really, really hard adjustment.
And thank you! I do pay a fair chunk for it though! :)
Despite being sick, I really learned to appreciate my life this past weekend. At times I felt utterly miserable as the depths of my stomach moaned and groaned, but I found it hard to complain when I felt the soft pillows on my back, the warm blanket on my body and knowing there was a fridge full of food steps away.
I’ll admit when world disasters happen I usually tune in the first few days and then choose to look the other way in the weeks remaining. Not because I don’t care, but because my heart usually can’t take it. I tear up when I see images of people suffering and feel I can’t take it.
Being home for 4 days straight lead to only-so-much trashy tv, gossip websites and blogs I could take and eventually I found my way back to the news and read everything I could get my hands on in regards to Haiti. It was devastating and heartbreaking and really made me realize just how insignificant my problems are.
As the Canadian government is matching dollar for dollar, all donations Canadians make to Canadian charitable organizations between Jan. 12 and Feb. 12, 2010 (ya, they’re awesome, I know) I made a contribution to the red cross last week and encourage you to do the same (they’re matching you dollar for dollar y’all!! that’s DOUBLE!).
I donno, I suppose the whole Haiti disaster just put this blog, my weight, my life in perspective, and you know what? It’s not that important, especially the weight part. There are worse things happening in this world of ours.