Day One (thousand and eight, but minor detail)
I’ve been debating all day about how much I’d share with y’all, and how often I’d check in on this blog about my self imposed “30 days of counting calories” challenge. Part of me wants to do it behind blog doors, but another part of me (which obviously won) knows that blogging about it gives me the accountability I struggle with alone, and thus… here I am!
I’m tracking calories in an excel spreadsheet (as apposed to My Fitness Pal), and simply getting the number of calories from the package (the best choice), or googling it - and using the closest item online I can find to whatever I’m eating. I’ll be aiming for 1,300cal/day.
I am also trying to drink as much water as I possibly can, and get at least 7 hours of sleep a night. Both these points are Weight Loss 101, but I struggle with H20, and I’m notorious for staying up late, so I’m adding these two items to the list.
Well, you guys, I won’t beat around the bush, it was HARD. I had to turn down delicious treats about five times today, and had today been last Friday, I would have eaten each of the treats (fancy cupcakes to welcome a new girl to the office, a floor “cookie run,” a meeting candy jar… ect.).
I also sat at my desk thinking about how hard this was going to be, and I felt doubt take over several times, there is no way you’ll be able to do this, no way at all. But I also kept reminding myself the beginning is always hard, and how worth it it’ll be in the end (life not fat = better. ah-oh, I went there). And of course, I kept telling myself I have to take control of this.. and now!! I’ve been slowly gaining weight since last January, and it scares me to think what will happen if I don’t take action and stop it soon. As I noted the other day, I already don’t recognize myself in the mirror (so much chin fat!), and don’t even get me started on my clothes… they’re all so tight, and I’m on the verge of heading out of regular size stores. Gah!!
Here’s what I ate today. It doesn’t look like much, but it came to 1,430 calories (my goal is to hit 1,300).
Cottage cheese for breakfast, and then a beef burrito, cheese, and apple for lunch. Dinner was salsa chicken, rice, asparagus & carrots. And dessert was a cheesecake tart, my mom gave me yesterday. (I know, who eats dessert when they’re on a diet, *raises hand* I do. But if I hadn’t done this challenge I would have eaten it 3.2 seconds after my mom gave it to me yesterday, and not even thought about it again. Knowing I had it for dessert today helped me pass up on the other treats.)
And now, as I take a deep breath and shut my eyes (just kidding! I need them to type) here are my “before” photos. I told myself I’d get one shot at each angle; none of this take-a-zillion-photos-till-I-like-one-business, and so… ta-da! Here I am, for your judging pleasure.
Sexy Walmart shorts right there, right?
I sort of cringe when I think about all the people who will see these bad boys, but what can I do? this is me. All 188.6lbs of me (psst I’m 5’4”), and as much as I think I fool people around me with my clothes, and cardigans, and sucking in when I can, I know nobody is actually fooled into thinking I’m smaller than I am, so really, I should just hit “publish” and be done with it.
3, 2, 1…
And with that, one day down, twenty nine to go.