September 17th, 2014
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Woke up late (literally I’m supposed to be at work in 4 minutes), but feeling thankful for all your kind words, and am now in an exceptionally good mood - ready to try (yet again), and make today count.

~ thank you ❤️ ~

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September 16th, 2014
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I walked into the elevator today to travel down six floors, and surrounded by strangers on all sides, I stared straight ahead into the mirrored door.

And there, straight ahead of me, was the reflection of a girl I didn’t recognize. Her face was puffy, her cheek bones lost, her hair not washed for far too many days, and in an outfit that was less than ordinary. 

I made eye contact with this girl. Stared her down, really. And this stranger, blankly stared right back at me. And there, in that elevator, around the third floor I had this wave of pure sadness sweep over me. What the actual fuck have I done?

I have issues with food. I know this. You know this. The whole world glancing my way knows this.  I think about it far too much. Promise tomorrow I’ll conquer the battle. And within 6 months I’ll have won the war. And then it’s always the same. Today is tomorrow. And tomorrow is my deadline.

And now I’m twenty nine, and in certain aspects of my life I feel like I’ve finally got my shit together, finally got a life plan, finally figured out the path I want to take. I am happy in nearly all areas of my life, with the exception of my weight.

Last week I went to dinner with a guy I went on about fifteen dates with (I actually have no idea how many dates, but whatever, that’s not the point), and he told me back on the first date he could tell how self conscious I was about my body.  Fuck.  My body language, he noted, showed it through and through. This girl doesn’t like the way she looks, he thought, as he watched my awkward arm gestures, purse placements, and sweater adjustments. Holy shit.

I don’t even know where I’m going with this post, or what my plan of action should be.  But I do know I have to do something, because it appears that it doesn’t matter how happy I am in my life, whether it be my career, my apartment, friends/family, finances, social outings… because being unhappy with one’s weight is overpowering and trickles into all facets of life. And what I know, and what I believe, is that my life is better not fat. And oh, how I find myself yearning for the days when weight/weight loss was just a slice of the pie that is my life, instead of trickling and perhaps even dominating all the corners of it.

And of course I realize a smaller size or lower weight doesn’t equate to a better, easier, everything-falls-in-your-lap life, but I know the confidence it ensues within me trickles into every moment I live. Big or small, throughout my days, the confidence of looking and feeling good, well, there’s nothing quite like it. From quietly painting my nails on my couch, to tossing on a party dress on in a hurry and running out the door, it’s easier to not be overweight. And simply put, I miss those days. 

I miss my old face, and clothes, and confidence. I miss not constantly thinking I look obese. I miss feeling fit, and pretty, and content with who I am. I miss taking photos and not caring about the angel, or seeing a reflection and liking what I see…  today, that’s sure not how it is; not even a little bit, well, not even at all.

And as I look around my apartment, at the photos on my walls, of my work laptop I happily took out this evening, at my phone that’s been buzzing with messages all evening from friends and family, it appears to me that the final piece to the game of my life, is my weight. And I’m drowning in desperately wanting to change, but not being able to do so. Wash, rinse, repeat, but how long can this last before… well, I don’t know what, but whatever it is, honestly, it scares me. A lot.

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September 15th, 2014
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Hi Friends, Family, Toronto-Based Internet!This is a special post, and something I’ve never done before, but I’m awfully excited about this, and if you’re in the Toronto area, and you and your friends are looking for an *awesome* evening out, come to Project Sunshine’s event, ShineOn!
What’s ShineOn!, you ask? Excellent question.  It’s the annual event of Project Sunshine, the charity where I volunteer and sit on the board of.
Project Sunshine is a non-profit organization that provides awesome programs (educational, recreational and social) to children facing medical issues like cancer.  Essentially, we host three events a year to raise money for the charity, and then create fun programs for sick children and their families in hospitals. It’s something very near & dear to my heart, and I am inviting each and every one of you to the event this year!
The event’s theme this year is classic fables and fairy tales, and I promise you, it’ll be awesome: candy-apple stations, palm readers, a real enchanted forest, open bar, silent auction, candy stations, hors d’oeuvres, & dancing… to name a few exciting items on the agenda for the evening. 
Here are the details:

Shine On! 2014  When: Thursday, October 9th at 8pm  Where: Daniels Spectrum, Toronto (585 Dundas St. East)Tickets: Tickets are $100, but the early-bird tickets are $85 (Available until September 21st).   

Click here to purchase your ticket, and don’t forget to RSVP to our Facebook event! 
I’d love to see each of you dressed up (it’s cocktail attire) for a fun evening out, in support of a great cause!
Thanks so much, 
Liz 

Hi Friends, Family, Toronto-Based Internet!

This is a special post, and something I’ve never done before, but I’m awfully excited about this, and if you’re in the Toronto area, and you and your friends are looking for an *awesome* evening out, come to Project Sunshine’s event, ShineOn!

What’s ShineOn!, you ask? Excellent question.  It’s the annual event of Project Sunshine, the charity where I volunteer and sit on the board of.

Project Sunshine is a non-profit organization that provides awesome programs (educational, recreational and social) to children facing medical issues like cancer.  Essentially, we host three events a year to raise money for the charity, and then create fun programs for sick children and their families in hospitals. It’s something very near & dear to my heart, and I am inviting each and every one of you to the event this year!

The event’s theme this year is classic fables and fairy tales, and I promise you, it’ll be awesome: candy-apple stations, palm readers, a real enchanted forest, open bar, silent auction, candy stations, hors d’oeuvres, & dancing… to name a few exciting items on the agenda for the evening. 

Here are the details:

Shine On! 2014 
When: 
Thursday, October 9th at 8pm 
Where:
Daniels Spectrum, Toronto (585 Dundas St. East)

Tickets: Tickets are $100, but the early-bird tickets are $85 (Available until September 21st).   

Click here to purchase your ticket, and don’t forget to RSVP to our Facebook event

I’d love to see each of you dressed up (it’s cocktail attire) for a fun evening out, in support of a great cause!

Thanks so much, 

Liz 

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September 14th, 2014
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Oh, what a beautiful, Toronto evening it was!

Today was a stark contrast to my lazy (couch-netflix-lovin’) Saturday.  Today kicked off early with a hop, skip, n’ jump to the barn, where I gallivanted around the fields on a studly stud, I must admit. Next up was Home Sense browsing (which let’s admit, could be considered a hobby of mine, as I love it sooooo much). And then after lunch with my sister, Lily and I attended the cutest, little art show, where we spent too much money on darling Christmas(!), Happy Birthday, and Just-Because handmade cards. Next up was a quick coffee catchup with my mom, and then a gorgeous evening dog walk along the lake. Phew!  See? Busy busy day.  And now I’m at home, eating a very-healthy salad, watching some random TV show m DVR recorded about airport security, and debating what colour to paint my nails.  Yup. all in a busy Sunday.

Oh! And I wanted to note how I’m equally torn between sadness about summer leaving early, and excitement for autumn to kick in early. I mean, summer is all jazz hands n’ warm, n’ sunbeams, but autumn is the best time of year for horse riding, and taking photos, and I also really like winter, so I don’t actually care too much what the weather does. I just like being outside, and tonight confirmed that.

This coming week is a busy one. Except for Monday night, I have something planned each evening, so I’ve made a promise to myself to order salads, and consciously eat very healthy during the day.  I’ll probably try to blog as much as I can, as blogging my food keeps me in check. Also, dear Future Liz, go for ONE run this week, Love Current Liz.

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September 14th, 2014
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Sunday Funday with my main squeeze. Ha 😊

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September 13th, 2014
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My brilliant plans this weekend weren’t exactly good long term plans.

Friday night I had friends over for dinner, and then the three of us decided all the wine in the world was a splendid idea. And it was. Up until about 3:30am. And then it wasn’t. And it has resulted in me having a very low key Saturday, spending quality time with Netflix & snapchatting friends from here to Australia. Wahoo! Thrilling weekend so far. Go me!

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September 10th, 2014
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I thought I lost these photo strips from the wedding’s photo booth, but (phew!) I thought wrong!

Perhaps some of my favourite shots from the whole evening. 

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September 9th, 2014
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Late night elevator rides. Subway rides to Project Sunshine meetings. Dollar store runs. Back in the office because sooooo much work. Late night cooking endeavours. One hour calls to my Internet provider (ugh). Laundry. Thinking about cleaning, but not. Changed a very high light bulb, nearly fell off the counter, and then was soooo impressed at my handy skills. And that, my friends, was my very mundane Tuesday. #singleforever

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September 8th, 2014
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And ps., my day-after-the-wedding ponytail was fantastic! And not fantastic? My arms… I rarely see them from this angle, and ohmyhawdddd…. I need to do CrossFit again 😳😳😳

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September 8th, 2014
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Weekend Wedding Bells (continued)

And now, for my favourite part, dancing the night away with the bride, groom & friends. I didn’t think i’d get to see Maria & Casey that much, as they’d have bride n’ groom duties, but how wrong I was! The evening was so much fun, and I remember seeing the clock strike midnight and being so sad there was only a few hours left. 

Here I am with the bride n’ groom, the new Mr. and Mrs. (who are off to Hawaii as I type this!). I can’t get over Maria - pure perfection! 

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Keeping it classy. And yes, yes, yes, I KNOW. My dress was too low. NEVER AGAIN. I was soooo self conscious, and that is the last time I show off the gals like that, because ugh. But anywho, moving on… striking a pose with this beautiful gentlemen:

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And my friend Tereas! 

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My dapper looking seat mates. 

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And Kavita who came in from Dr. duties in NYC for the festivities. 

And, of course, the gang:

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And then, of course, their first dance… 

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Here’s Casey & Maria cutting the cake - perhaps the best photo I took throughout the whole evening on my iPhone. The lighting is just so lovely, and I love how you can see batman poking his head out the cake (ps. Yup, she did a dress change). 

Sparkle! Sparkle! And then… blurry SHOTS! (not pictured: vodka going straight into my EYE. It was soooo sore, but then felt so clean.).

And more selfies…

And then we danced until we couldn’t dance anymore (literally, we got kicked out)

It was a beautiful, glorious, fun, delicious, evening celebrating these two people, who I couldn’t have matched together better. 

Congratulations Maria & Casey, and I can’t wait for this next chapter in your life! xoxo

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Welcome! I'm Liz, the girl relieved the Internet has 0 calories. South African by birth; Canadian on paper. A marathoner. CrossFitter. Paleo (somewhat) eater. Traveler. Cheese lover. And I think you're great!



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