How am I? Oh, you know… well, wait. I suppose you don’t.
I’ve been quiet on the Internet front the past few weeks for several reasons. The first and foremost honestly being I am so busy. So busy, in fact, that sometimes I truly don’t understand how I used to pop into this space so often, and find time to document my life so consistently. Good for me, because blogging takes time & effort and how have I been doing this for over 5.5 years?!
But there’s another reason, I must confess, and that’s that I’ve become awfully self conscious of this life I lead. The words I write. The photos I take. The places I go, and things I see. I don’t know. I don’t know whether I’m worried about being judged, or that I feel like my life is so boring (to others) it’s odd to upload a photo or story or snippet about an outfit, or run, or every day things. I mean, really. My days through and through are just so, well, ordinary.
So… with that said, let me take advantage of this pint (or two) flowing through my veins, and the vulnerability that comes with the clock striking 2am. I’ve been dating a lot. Let’s start there. Nothing serious, I think. I don’t know. One guy, whom I met through a mutual friend, has been around now for a few months. It’s fun, it’s casual, and it’s nice to have a consistent person to do something with. We actually openly discussed what we’re doing the other day; it’s certainly not a relationship because our lack of communication and/or check-ins is quite impressive, but it’s also not a, ummm, for lack of a better term, booty call. We go on dates. Lots of dates. And hang out and watch movies and order food together. He cooks, I clean. It works well. And it is what it is, and I’m, we’re, happy with it, especially because my time (and his) is so limited these days due to work.
Speaking of work, I am taking advantage of being single these days. I have no obligations come 5pm. No person to meet. No children to pick up. No places to be, and expectations to meet. So I work. A lot. When I look back on my corporate career I spent my twenties plotting and planning to travel the world. To escape to literally the other side of the world. And that, I did (yay!). But now that I’m back? Well now I am concentrating on my career. Twenty nine is the year of my life I have dedicated to my career. I work hard in the office (and often miss social events because of it), but then when I can, I’m also very kind to myself outside of the office. Because if working fifteen plus hours a day means I lay in bed and watch Netflix until 3pm on a Saturday, even when it’s sunny out, and the birds are calling my name, I don’t really care. Because I know I’m working hard for a company I love and believe in, going after promotions I want, and putting in my time to make a place for myself in the corporate world. It’s exciting, and I love it, and have a grand plan to continue to work my ass off for, well, as long as I need to to define this chapter of my life.
Speaking of my ass, it’s grown. Well, wait. I shouldn’t say that. This morning I weighed 182, so really, I’m sitting around where I was at the beginning of this year. So my good, old, ass has actually stayed the same. It’s not ideal, but given how much sitting I do these days, and constant battles not to eat all the office treats, I’m okay with this. My Personal Trainer is going well, it’s a huge struggle to make it to the gym for our set times each week (because of work), but I enjoy the feeling of muscles returning (slowly) to my body, and the sore feeling the day after a good workout. I’ve been meaning to get outside and run for a while… umm, remember how I ran four full marathons? Good Lord, how did I ever do that?
I’ve also started volunteering for an *awesome* organization called Project Sunshine. I’ll be sure to devote a whole post to this soon, as it’s an amazing charity, and I truly feel so lucky to have been accepted as a board member. The commitment is fairly extensive, but it’s something I am passionate about (they help families with sick children in hospitals), and I can’t wait to raise money through awesome events, and volunteer with the kids and their families.
What else? Horse riding, Baby Lily, Seeing friends, and family. I am living a content, full life, and I am thankful for every moment of it. My family is heading to a cottage next week, which will be sad times as I can’t go for work, but I’m going kayaking on Saturday, a bbq on Sunday, as well as Tim McGraw *yeehaw!* in the evening. I’m also online dating when I can fit it in - but folks, that’s a whole post in and of itself. Okay. Okay. I must get some rest. My boss told me today that people who are productive at night (me!) have an on average higher IQ, so I’ll rest my head thinking about that, and not how I have to be up in a mere few hours.